Monday, March 6, 2017

Happy ever after....


       My recent work aint got one. I'm about to wrap up my second book and I just wanted to take a few minutes to write why it's so dang hard to finish. 
      Have any of ya'll ever created something? By that, what I mean to say is, have ya'll ever poured your heart into something that you begin to feel so intensely, reality and make believe get blurred? 
       How about thoughts? This work has honestly taken me inside the minds of each character and I have to say, I am amazed at what I've found. 
       When I first started this piece, I didn't know what to think of my main characters, Kiowa and Anoki. Both are American Indian. When I first conceived the idea,  I thought their scope narrow. Their logic primitive. And their emotions controlled by their most basic necessity, food. This journey has shown me that I was wrong on all counts. 
       To begin with, the Indian of just one hundred and seventeen years ago was an artist. As was every red skinned man and woman before him. You can see it in the paint they used to go to war, the animals they colored, the tipis they decorated, and their clothes. The oldest decor I've found in a museum has the brightest colored beads and the best renditions of their magic and inspirational animals. Yes sir, they were in fact artists! Good ones too. At the American Indian museum in D.C., you will find that colors were the center of their universe.
       Second, Indians had deep love in their hearts for their mates. I don't think Colonists or even modern day America could understand the powerful grip of an Indian heart. When they committed to each other, they shared a flame that withered only in flesh over time, but not in eternal brightness in heart or warmth of their spirits. The objects of their love, their children, were their most prized possessions. They would do anything for their children! If you wanted to experience the extreme wrath of any Native tribe, do something stupid like mess with their kids. There was no limit to the extremes they would go to for their children. 
       Next would be their tribes. They were insanely loyal to each other, but that loyalty was not defined by our terms, which would seem savage, but by their own Indian laws. The first thing everyone reading this needs to understand about Indians is that Indians roamed the plains and went to war with each other same as they did with white settlers. They stole from each other. They killed each other. But that was their way. They didn't have an economy that was centered on money, so they valued functional things that had use to them. Horses were #1. 
      They were musicians. Poets. Philosophers. Adventurers. They were and still are a people that surprise me in every way. They ring the bell of inspiration in me and I can't stop reading about them. Since I started this book two years ago, I've been reading one book a month. I've been so moved by books like, "Bury Me At Wounded Knee," and "My Life as An Indian," and "Slave of the Sioux." I'm left wanting to know more. Always more. I've read twenty books and traveled to the best museums to find out everything I could about them. I've observed their offspring and watched their dances. I have been the silent observer to their way of life and an unexpected thing has happened. They have inspired me. 
     Now many of you probably have one perspective or another of Native Americans. Here's a few things you should know before you enter their world. 
     Don't go in with preconceived notions. There are three things to remember. 
1) The stuff you see on T.V. is make believe. "Dances with Wolves," is no more real than "Tanto." Most Indians were warriors or hunters first and foremost. If you were a foreigner white/red/yellow/black and encountered a tribe, you stood a really good chance of getting slaughtered and scalped. Male, Female, and child were no exceptions to the burning post and the scalping knife. One of our earliest encounters with Indians is Captain John Smith and Pocahontas. Captain Smith just about got his brains bashed out before the Chief's favorite daughter Pocahontas threw herself on him and mercifully saved his life. If the warriors had succeeded in killing Captain Smith, they would have scalped him. Many tribes scalp, because they believe the spirit is trapped in the scalp. By taking your scalp, they would imprison your soul in a dream weave. Also, scalps were trophies. Most tribes valued warriors. So the more scalps you had, the greater warrior you were. Think of scalps as Super Bowl rings. The more rings you have, the better player you are. Because of these hard facts, I naturally assumed Indians were savages. And though that was true for many tribes, many tribes were no different structurally than the whites of their time. Except maybe in appearance and practice. In some ways, the Indians were even more advanced. They had a say in their government, whereas the colonists did not. They had a say in law-making, something colonists had in practice but not implementation. They valued something the American colonies didn't have or even understand, freedom. Though you may disagree with that fact, consider this, we were all subjects of the King of England. And England was set on keeping us oppressed. To summarize numero uno, Indians didn't just demand respect, they freaking earned respect. They did that by maintaining a well-regulated militia, or tribe. 
2) Their God's are numerous and sometimes difficult to understand. But in the end, all you need to understand is that Indians believed in magic. Magic could be found in literally millions of ways. One of the things I found most interesting about the Kiowa is that they prayed to two different God's. One that would tell them to do good. Another that would tell them to do bad. The motivations of most Indians can be traced directly back to the answers they got from those prayers. To sum up numero doce, Indians are deeply religious! And their Gods are not peaceful like the Christian God. Remember that religion influences motivation. Motivation leads to action. Actions of Indians examined by modern eyes will often yield the same results as Colonial eyes. Savagery at its apex. Of course, by modern standards, Catholic rule and expansion throughout Europe and later South America would be met with equivalent criticism, so if you're going to have a narrow focus and you get both of those results, you are totally missing the experience! To accurately understand Indians or Catholics, you have to put yourself in their time period and their frame of mind. Do not be so narrow-minded as to criticize their Gods. Instead, see what their motivation was and let them tell you their story, uninterrupted. 
3)  Tribal culture was as varied and unique as fingerprints. The greatest crime the American Government committed (in my opinion) was rolling all Indians up in one tortilla, Good with the Bad, and punishing them all the same. Thank you Andrew Jackson! Some cultures were incredibly violent. They attacked and killed for the fun of it. The Minnesota massacre is just one example. Grass Woman, or Sacagawea's story is another example of Indian violence. For those of you who don't know, Sacagawea was kidnapped from her Snake Indian tribe. numero trace summarized, do not make the mistake of attributing one tribe's crimes to another. That would be equivalent to comparing Nazi Germany with London. 
       I've done my best to incorporate these experiences into a book I'll soon be releasing. It's titled, "Ch'i Ma Kue." Translated (hopefully correctly) it means, "Man, Woman, Wolf." Tonight, I am struggling to write the end, because my characters, Kiowa and Anoki have become so real to me, I don't want to let go. I've been lost in their world, and as I sit and finish their story, I am struggling to say good-bye. Even to the point of tears.
      I can't imagine many of you would understand what I'm saying, but for the ones who can, the crazies, the inventors of worlds, the dream catchers, the imaginary infinite, this is a message in a bottle to you. #tots #sad 

Sunday, February 19, 2017

So I'm FREAKING rich!!!

And it's time to get all upitty and dive into art. That's what all the rich folks do right? I got $10,000 and I'm ready to rub elbows with the elite of the elites. I figure the best place to start is at the tippy top. This pic is in Washington D.C. It's the only Davinci in the Americas. I'm taking my profits and I'm hightailing it for the Capital. If you been there, I'd appreciate any advice on the comings and goings. 

Monday, December 14, 2015

All by myself...

In life, you truly don't need no one or nuthin. That's what I used to believe. Now my beliefs is all mixed up. I'm just sort of Pablo went to visit family for Christmas. Maybe for good?!? So here I sit on the edge of lake Tahoe, listening to the latest music recommendations on my new Iphone 6, "Edge of Glory." Aint feeling sorry for myself though. Just sort of kickin it wondering what a body is supposed to do next. I hate the silence. It annoys me. I'll chime in when I have internet at the local library. Till then readers, keep on keepin on!



Tuesday, May 26, 2015

How do you know when something is dead?

It aint got a heart beat and it's body is cold. No warmth in the eyes. Not even a flicker. No wind in the lungs, thus, no words. The lifeless shell remains, but the intelligence is gone. Perhaps I have been wrong? Perhaps Pablo has been right all along. Perhaps there is a spirit in these seasoned bones.  An eternal flame that continues once the flesh retires. After decades of disbelief, the wheel of life turns and grinds on the truths I've held so dear. The pieces shatter and I suddenly see myself standing on clouds instead of solid earth. Logic, reason, sight, taste, touch, these are all the tools with which I have grounded my atheism. Am I a reflection of a creators creation? Am I an assortment of cells engineered by random design? Or is there actually a lofty holy hand in all of this? If I were created, then the creators signature is in the valves of my heart, the blood that keeps all limbs alive, and the spark of intelligence in my mind. I must say, I have my doubts of the eternal, but I no longer subscribe to the science of atheism with even a micro cell of belief. 

Sunday, February 15, 2015

Bam! New book store!

Sometimes, you gotta love screwed up pics. Nerd Chick dun cut this pic on accident. It should actually read, "Bay Books NEW USED RARE". I like it like this though. Anywho, you can get it here: 

Diablo Plaza, 2415 San Ramon Valley Blvd, San Ramon, CA 94583
(925) 855-1524

Saturday, February 14, 2015

Took my own advice...

Picked me up a copy of Harry Potter at a second hand book store. Just started reading about that little fella. I never have been much of a reader, but so many people have told me to read it, I decided I might as well give it a go. So far I'm only in chapter one. Man back in my day, if there was a book about Witches and Warlocks, the local Christian congregations would protest you, burn your book, and brand you a servant of Satan. I suppose things have changed quite a bit. I often find remnants of those days frozen in little towns. You can see the faded coke signs for a quarter. Or a picture of a Hershy bar for a quarter. Sometimes I stumble on an empty gas station where a sign marks gas at 99 cents a gallon. Cant hardly believe those days are gone. Things have got so expensive these days its hard to believe anyone can afford anything. I mean does anyone even own an "A-Team" t-shirt anymore? Do ya'll know who, "Rocky" was? Ever heard of a Vietnam legend named, "Rambo?" If you haven't, you ought to. Well, I gotta get on out. Ya'll take care.

Don't forget to drink your Ovalten and #gettabook: P&P

Tuesday, February 10, 2015

Nerd Chick strikes again!

Well if that don't beat all! Sara went and done it again. She got me in yet another bookstore!

3457 McHenry Ave, Modesto, CA 95350
(209) 521-9623

P&P got placed at the YA section. If ya'll can't get on down to the bookstore, you could always getta book here: P&P

Thursday, January 22, 2015

Boyah... new book store!

This here is a fine book store. Leigh's Favorite Books has some great books. And my book just got added to their bookshelves. 

You can find it right next to Harry Potter.

Best part is, it's right next door to Bookasaurus. 

So if you want to pick up some kids books, go next door and get your youngens some good stories. 

Sunday, January 18, 2015

Couple things ya'll ought to know...

Here's 4 things I think ya'll ought to know that will help you:

1) Don't devalue yourself. I know it's easy to focus on your weaknesses, but ya'll gotta try and focus on your strengths. Christopher Columbus never would have made it to the America's with doubt in his sails. John Wayne once said, "Life is hard. It's even harder when you're stupid!" Being stupid is telling yourself what you suck at 24/7. Just don't do it. If you want to discover the America's, you gotta have an unyielding belief... some call that faith.

2) Know what opportunity looks like. I bet when Steve Jobs and Bill Gates was first starting out, no one knew how successful them boys was going to be. In fact, if you look at their pictures in their youth, them fellas look like a couple damn hippies. I bet no one knew that opportunity for Steve Jobs was going to India for a year. I bet even fewer people knew what opportunity looked like when he got back and got to work on keyboards in his garage. I bet people started seeing opportunity when it moved out of the garage, got an investor, and started making mad sales. I bet folks truly knew what it looked like when it was in a four story building and cruising in a BMW. By then, most people who could have made mad wealth were gone. They already made their mind up on who Steve Jobs was and that opportunity just passed them by. Same story goes for Bill Gates. When he dropped out of Harvard and moved into a motel in New Mexico, I bet he never thought he would be one of Harvard's most successful Alumni. I bet people around him thought he was crazy, but the truth is, those who knew he wasn't harnessed that opportunity and made mad money doing it. Point of all this... don't judge a book by it's cover!

3) Build value where value players exist. I got a lot of people telling me I aint never going to be able to get my book on a shelf. Them are folks I won't never work with. It's like Joe Dirt said, "you can't have no in your heart!" What if Thomas Edison had no in his heart? Think the light bulb would have got invented? Or motion pictures? Or the radio? Or most electronic devices? Aint now way! Even cell phones require a battery.

4) When you find value players, build value with them. All these men I've highlighted had value. Someone saw their vision and built value with them. By value, I mean if Thomas Edison is working on something called a light bulb and needs zinc and glass, you get that man zinc and glass. If Steve Jobs has a vision about a touch screen device that does a gazillion things, you best start seeing what he's projecting, lest opportunity pass you up. If a nerdy little Harvard dropout starts talking about something crazy called software, I highly suggest you learn about it and get the man what he needs. Course this is hindsight and I know ya'll are going to say it's impossible to know, but the truth is, some people knew and built a crap ton of wealth. That right there is what I'm talking about!

Whew, that was a mouth full. I gotta go, but I hope ya'll like what we talked about here. Go check out my book! Prince & Princess.

Tuesday, January 6, 2015

New Years... shmoe years...

I don't give no two craps about New Years. Sure it's tons of fun drinking yourself stupid. It's also bunches of fun getting the beer goggles on and kissing some random chick! But since I aint been able to do that in years, I'm gonna have to say... it sorta sucks! However, in that righteous spirit of setting goals, I got some new ones. Please see below:

1) Re-evaluate my position on God (Audrey is a might convincing)

2) Let my daughter know I love her (even if she aint really my daughter)

3) Get my book in every bookstore and supermarket on either side of the Mississippi.

4) Make bank selling my books on Amazon.

5) Drink less... fish more!

Pretty short list, but goals is hard to make and harder to keep. I think I'll keep it loosey goosey! Have a good un!